Well Hello There.

It's been a couple days since I have posted. Wups! lol. So Let's see, this week has been alright I would say.

Monday I had to work 7-3pm in the PetsHotel, and then I had to rush home, take the dogs out, change clothes, and get to therapy. Which that has been going very well, I really like Rebecca. Even Steve said something about it the other day how it seems to be already helping me, which I will agree. Yay!!! A good $20/week spend if you ask me. And hopefully I will still be able to go when I start school, she said she has a 7:30pm on Mondays available, and might even beable to do 6pm cause her 5pm is moving and her current 6pm wants to move to the 5pm slot, so we will see :) After therapy what did I do??? Ohh.. I don't remember, lol. Monday was so long ago, lol.

Tuesday I had to work 11-7:30 in the grooming salon, which that has been going pretty well, I guess. I mean there are still some days where I am like wtf! do they even want me here. But anyways, after work I just came home and chilled.

Wednesday, was my day off yay! I went to the gym, and did some running around, I had to get more bleach, and I had to get a new razor for school, and I had to pick up hair color for my mom. Then I stopped in and visited Steve at work. And then I came home took, Bella for a walk, and then when Steve got home we went out to eat at Boston's to celebrate me getting into Douglas J's educator program, It was made offical on Wednesday :) I signed all the paperwork and they got my loan money. Then after dinner, Steve and I came home and beat Resident Evil 5, which felt like it took forever cause i got super tired, and the last boss was a pain in the ass.

Today, I had to work 11-7:30 in the salon again, but I ended up being able to leave at 5pm, which was nice because I had to go out to Garden City to see my parents, and then I stopped by Mark and Mandi's, to highlight and cut Mandi's hair. It was nice seeing everyone. I just got home a little bit ago actually. But I made $60 and I also finally got my Sprint Rebate check, yay!!

So, tomorrow I need to hit up the bank, and deposit all the checks I have, lol. And I need to pay rent, I also want to look into new blinds for the bedroom. And I need to clean the apartment, I'd rather do it tomorrow then have to waste my day Sunday doing it when I could just be hanging with Steve :)

So anyways, my friend posted this 30 day challenge thing, and it seems pretty cool, so I am going to do it also. THe pic is kinda crappy but you can read it if you click on it.



So here is Day one:
1. Your Middle name, and how you feel about it.
My middle name is Lynn, and I feel like it is too common, and kind of boring. Kinda like my first name as well. lol.

Alright kiddies, that's all I have for you for today, it's late 11:23pm, and I am getting tired.

♥ You Know You Love Me xoxo

Weekend's end :(

Aw.. I am sad tha this is the last day to my wonderful weekend with my hunny. We usually don't get to spend a whole weekend together.

I woke up feeling kinda blah this morning, my throat is fine, it actually hasn't been bothering me since I started my antibotics on Tuesday. But my nose and sinuses are driving me bananas, they will not clear up. I have been taking Zyrtec once int he morning, and once again in the evening, and it helps for most of the day and night but it would just be nice to not have to deal with it at all.

So today or tomorrow, probably tomorrow, I need to grab ALL my hair stuff and go through it and make sure I have everything I need for school, cause if I don't I can buy whatever I need at cost through the school. Right now, I know for sure I need the FHI Hair Dryer, which is amazing cause I have wanted one since last year when the classes after us in cos school started getting them in their kits. I also know I need a new razor because I hate the one I have, but I might just buy that on my own at Sally's depending on what they can get me through the school. I also need a mirror cause I broke mine, which that I will probably get on my own also cause I am sure I can just pick one up at the dollar store. But I am almost 100% positive I need all the Marilyn brushes, cause those came out when I was finishing up school, but I need to really look at the brushes I have. I have another meeting with Macy on Wednesday, and I want to figure out all what I need before then, so I can talk to her about getting them.

I have no idea what is in store for me today, lol. I am sure Steve and I are going to play more RE5, it was a lot of fun. We played basically all day yesterday, took breaks for food and stuff but that was about it.

I can't stay up too late tonight, I have to work 7-3 in the PetsHotel, and then I have therapy at 4pm. SO I am going to have to rush right over to therapy, and then hopefully I am feeling better so I can go to the gym tomorrow as well.

Money has been stressing me out hardcore the past week, and I am sure it will next week too cause in the past two weeks, I have only worked 4 days. My check on Friday was for $86 for two days, and then I only worked two days this week cause I got sick, but thankfully, I am back to working in the PetsHotel a couple days a week, and I got 38 hours for this coming week which will be nice and it will save me just in time for rent.

Alright, well I should probably go clean up the apartment a bit before Steve wakes up cause I know once he wakes up I won't do it lol.

♥ You Know You Love Me xoxo

Hello Saturday.

Ugh SO I have been sick basically all damn week, which has sucked ass. I called off on Tuesday, and then went in and worked Thursday and Friday. Friday wasn't too bad because I was working in the PetsHotel, so I didn't really have to do much, which was nice. Working in the salon takes a lot outta me, even more so when I am sick.

Steve ended up getting sick on Tuesday, and he didn't go into work on Tuesday, and then he worked from home on Wednesday and Thursday, and then he tried going in on Friday but they sent him home. Today we were suppose to go to the Music as a Weapons tour with KoRn and DIsturbed but I decided to sell the tickets cause I knew neither one of us would probably feel up to going. So his co-worker Amanda came and got them yesterday, and with the money I got, we went out and bought Resident Evil 5 and Magic cards, We drafted last night and played 2 game sof Magic, and then went to bed.

Today we finished up our last game of Magic, and of course Steve won, caus ehe's a big cheater lol, No I'm just playing but he does always win, damn it. And the rest of the day we have been relaxing on the couch played RE 5. It's pretty damn instense. Oh, we did leave the apartment to take back our 3 bag fulls of pop cans, and we got more pop, and some other things we needed, and then got lunch. It's been nice having so many days off with him, but I wish we wern't sick.

I seriously can't wait to move out, I am kind of sick of this place already, and we have only been here since November, but things have changed since Crystal the manager left. Only a little longer I guess, and then we can look for something bigger and better, and by then I will hopefully be working for DJ and making more monies!!!!

Alrighty well I think it's time for more RE5 :)

♥ You Know You Love Me xoxo

Can't Wait to Move

Ok so a little while ago, I am taking my dog, Nelly out for a walk, she's a chocolate lab mix. She looks like a chocolate lab but not as big. Anyways, we are walking our usual route and she stops and pee's where she always does, and the lady that lives in the apartment right there opens her bedroom window, and yells at me saying that Nelly poop'd there yesterday and that I didn't clean it up. I was like umm what? And then she processed to ask me why I wasn't cleaning up after her right now, and I said she pee'd!! And the lady was like oh, and closed the window. For a pet-friendly apartment complex it's not very friendly to it's pet owners lately and it's driving me nuts. I seriously can't wait to move. Steve and I have already talked about trying to get a house or town house when this lease is up, something with a back yard so I don't have to deal with this bullshit.

I started to look a little on-line the other day after we talked about it just to see how much we were looking at, and it's not too bad, there was actually a 3 bedroom house on CL's for rent for like $600 which is not bad, and there were pics and it looked decent and it was in Royal Oak, that's where we would like to venture to after this. And I can't wait.

Ok I am done bitching for now.

♥ You Know You Love Me xoxo

Great News....

My isnurance doesn't cover an ENT doctor so I have no idea if I will be able to get my tonsils out or not anytime soon. :(

Steve and I have just been being mopey around the house. I went and picked up his rx since I am feeling better then he is. He did wake up for a little while but now he's back resting, I should have done that yesterday but I hate sleeping the days away. Even when I'm sick.

I got to play the sims for a bit and then I took a break to watch some more Glee. I still can't decide if I like this show, lol. It's a bit retarded sometimes, lol.

Ok.. I lost track of what I wanted to write about.

♥ You Know You Love Me xoxo

boo...you whore.

So I have been battling Strep Throat since Sunday night, it's been wonderful. Like i said when I woke up Monday, I felt terrible, well yesterday was even worse then Monday. I slept like complete shit Monday night, and finally at like 7am, I was like this is retarded, I called into work which I really didn't want to do, but I really had no choice, they wouldn't have wanted me there, I promise. I went and laid back down for a bit but that got me no where, Steve woke up feeling like shit too. I called his doctor cause I looked her up and she accepts my insurance, and I figured it would be easier to drive 2 seconds to her, then 45 mins to Dr. Kay, but when I called to try and make an appointment, they didn't have any for new patients, so I ended up just going back to the urgent care right by our apartment, that I had went to for my eye.

I had to sit at urgent care for an hour before I was taken back into an exam room, the doc came in and he was super nice, I liked him a lot. If I knew I would get him everytime, I would just always go there. I didn't have a fever but I was pretty close to having one, and he took a swap of my throat and said it would take about 10 mins for results, he came back like 2 mins later and said as soon as he put the swab in whatever it came back positive right away for strep, which I kind of knew already cause I get it every year, which I had mentioned this to him, and he said I should probably go see a Ear, Nose, and Throat specialist about getting my tonsils out which will help me not get strep so much. I'm not looking forward to that.

Steve ended up going and seeing his doctor, which she took a swab of his throat but told him it would take til Thursday to get results and didn't give him any medicine or anything, which I thought was completely strange. She said to just stay away from people and get rest and if things changed to give her a call back. Now I am kind of glad I didn't go to her, cause I would have been dieing without some antibotics.

SO yesterday we both laid around and relaxed almost all day. I watched more of season one of Glee, which I still haven't decicded if I like the show or not yet. It's been nice being home with Steve cause we usually don't get all days together but it sucks that we are both sick cause we don't even really want to be by each other lol.

TOday I am feeling a bit better but I am still going to take it easy cause I have to work the next two days and I don't want to be worse off at work.

I cleaned up a bit today, there were snot rags all over the place from both of us, and the sink was full of dishes which I hate so I took care fo that and I am not doing anything else for the rest of the day but lay around and watch Glee and maybe play some Sims and/or WoW depending on how my head is feeling.

Alrighty kiddies, I hope all of you arn't sick or get sick, cause it is awful.

♥ You Know You Love Me xoxo

Hate being sick

Yesterday I felt like I was hung over, but I didn't even drink at all over the weekend.

I cleaned the apartment yesterday, and then we just relaxed, we hit up Target and got a SD card for my computer and now it runs great. Nick came over and we all played some games, and then I got super tired, so I went to bed.

When I woke up this morning I felt like a truck hit me, my head hurt, my throat was sore, and my nose was running. I took some airbourne, ate some breakfast and hit the gym, thought I was starting to feel better but was wrong, I have felt like crap all day. But even though I felt crummy, I still got all the laundry done and I've been watching season one of Glee. It's a crazy ass show, lol.

I am about to take some Nyquil and call it a damn night. Blah.

♥ You Know You Love Me xoxo

Woo hoo, This girl is going back to school...

I got the offical word from Macy yesterday in an email. And I am good to start school on April 18th!!!! Yay!!! So excited.

I told Donna, the manager at the PetsHotel that I would be starting work and she really didn't seem to care, and just said that if they don't need me in the salon on Saturdays, she would use me :) And then I told my manager in the salon, and she didn't seem to happy about it, I mean yeah it sucks, and I didn't mean to screw them, but I don't want to be a groomer, and I love Douglas J and doing hair, but they should be ok cause they just hired two more bathers.

This whole weekend has been kinda strange, I didn't work on Friday, but it didn't feel like a Friday to me at all, and I really didn't see Steve at all either cause all his friends are getting together over this weekend for St. Patty's Day and what have you. I couldn't come hang out yesterday cause I went to do Lori's hair and by the time I got back on this side of twon it was late and I had to get up at 5:30am for work, So yeah I worked this morning 7-3:30pm, it actually wasn't too bad, I was semi busy but not out of control busy which is good, I might actually like working this shift.

I got home and I was going to take a nap but I actually wasn't tired so Steve came and got me, and we got food and came to ICHQ aka Brian's house, and there are only a couple people here right now, and we are all on our computers doing different shit, I was smart and brought my netbook with me this time, lol. I have no idea what is in store for the evening but I don't know how late I will make it so we will see.

Tomorrow I am not leaving the apartment unless I have to because my poor dogs have been alone for the past three days, and last night they made me feel horrible, lol even though when I am there they don't do anything but lay around and sleep, and Nelly will sometimes hump her baby, lol. I do stop in and let them out and check their food and water.

Alrighty kiddies, I am going to get off here for now.

♥ You Know You Love Me xoxo

I lied.

So I haven't changed my layout, I didn't end up even looking for a new back ground or anything the day I said I was going to.

Well... I had my appointment at Douglas J and it was so awesome. I applied for a school loan on Wednesday and I got approved for everything I will need to pay for school and to pay my bills durning the three months that I am in school. I talked to Macy yesterday, and it sounds like everything is in order, she just had to check with the director of the school about me starting in April because I am the only one who is signed up for it right now, but she said they did a one on one before. I think it would be kind of cool cause then my teacher would be focused on me, but like my friend Ricki said it might make the time drag on.

Yesterday was St. Patty's Day, I don't get all excited for it, cause I honestly don't see the point in celebrating drinking all day. I kind of think it's stupid, but to each their own, ya know? Steve's friends are all getting together this whole weekend to celebrate and hang out, I went over there last night after work, and it was more of a laid back night which I like, I am not a big party person or drinker. I am probably not going to go over there today, cause Steve is working durning the day, he thought he was going to be able to leave early but now he doesn't think he will, and I don't want to go over there with out him, I am not at that stage yet, and then later tonight I have to be in Livonia at 4pm to do some highlights on Lori again, and then by the time i get back out here it will probably be 8 or 9pm, and I have to work at 7am tomorrow which means I have to be up at 5:30am, so there really would be no point to drive over to Brian's for like a half an hour, cause I would really like to get a decent amount of sleep. And then I will just go over there after work on Saturday, well after a nap of course lol. Cause Steve will be there all day on Saturday, I don't eben know if he will even come home tonight, which would kind of suck.

Today I am just hang out at the house before I go out to Livonia, I felt bad that the dogs were here all day by themselfs yesterday. I think Peanut missed me, cause he's been laying next to me all morning, he usually stays in the bed until I go and get him.

Ughh I should probably go to the gym but I am seriously not motivated. I haven't had a day off where I could just relax. And really I have shit to do today so I kinda just want to relax while I am here and can.

Well I am off to figure out what I wanna do.

♥ You Know You Love Me xoxo

New Design.

I know it hasn't been long but I think it might be time for a new background and layout for my blog, what do ya think? Since I have nothing to do today until 3pm, I might browse around and see what I can find.

I was up kinda late lastnight, not feeling too hot. Steve and I kinda got into a little disagreement, but we talked and worked it out of course. That's what I love about our relationship we can always talk about things, not like when I was with other guys, they never wanted to talk about anything. I am glad Steve doesn't like conflict and he wants to talk and work things out. My nose is like a running facet, which sucks :( Hopefully I feel better later this afternoon cause I have my appoointment at Douglas J today. FINALLY!! I feel like these past 3 weeks took forever.

Douglas J is a company that owns 4 Aveda Schools and 2 Aveda Salon and Spas, It is one of the top schools in the country for cosmetology. I attending Douglas J from January 2009-May 2010, graduated and got my cos license. I have tried working in a few salons but for whatever reason things didn't work out. When I was still in school they told us about their educator program and I was interested then, but I didn't think I would be able to do it. Then Steve and I got to talking one night, and I had mentioned it to him before about how I wanted to do it, so he told me to get more information and then we could see what we could work out. The program is not super long so hopefully we will be able to work something out, I figure if I can get into it in like August/September we will be alright cause his lease will be done at Jackie's and he won't have to pay her every month anymore. So I am getting more information today at 3pm. It's funny I couldn't wait to get outta school but not that I have been out for almost a year, I miss it dearly.

Ooo.. is my body a little sore today. yay for the gym, lol. I don't think I am going to go today, but tomorrow for sure. I figure I could go Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays since I seem to have those days off, that way my body can rest a day inbetween. I might do the Wii Fit Yoga on the days I don't go to the gym, that way I am still doing something. ANd Yoga feels great and it will help tone and everything while I am working out and losing weight.

Alrighty, well I should probably get off of here and start my day by taking Nelly out she has been patiently waiting, lol.

♥ You Know You Love Me xoxo

Big 30 and I missed it.

My brother Mark is turning the big 30 tomorrow, and his wife and two of his friends decided to surprise him with a party at Sports Venus in Garden City on Saturday and guess who didn't get an invite? Yup, that's right this girl. Kinda stings a little bit, since well it's my brother. I just seem to get over looked a lot more since I moved out. It use to happen when I lived at home but now it happens more often. You think I would just be use to it by now, but when it's usually family that is doing it, it hurts even more. I will probably get Mark a card and stop by on Wednesday when I am out there cause it's not really his fault I wasn't invited. His friend text me today telling me how sorry he was and blah blah whatever it's fine.

Had my second therapy session today, and it went really well. She gave me an exercise to do whenever I start to feel anxious and hopefully it will help, and she also gave me some insight to help me this coming weekend, with Steve's friends all coming into town for a big get together. I am liking going to therapy.

Went to target and splurged on some new work out gear, that I probably shouldn't have got, but needed it, my other work out pants have holes all in them. So I got new pants, a shirt, and a zip up all made out of that special stuff that's super comfy lol. Apparently my ass looks amazing in these pants per Steve, lol he couldn't keep his hands off of me :) today was my first day back to the gym, and it was amazing! I never realized how much I missed it. I felt super great after being on the elptical for 30 mins and then doing the circuit training.

My dinner was very healthy I must say, lol. We ordered from Five Guys and I got their Veggie Sandwich thinking it was a boca patty or soy patty, nope it was lettece on a bun, good thing I only paid $2 for it.

Tomorrow I have my meeting at Douglas J, I am super excited and super nervous. I really hope that I will be able to get into the program and get out of my curtain job. We will see.

Well that's all I got for ya today.

♥ You Know You Love Me xoxo

fml

I woke up this morning to my left eye bugging me, I thought maybe I just had something in it. So....

I put on my glasses and sit up out of bed, and realize that I can't see out of my left eye, it's all blurry like I didn't even have my glasses on. So I don't freak out just yet, I get up and use some eye drops, and wait a little while. And when nothing happens, I start to freak. Then my whole face starts to hurt, and I am like wtf!

So I call into work cause there is no way I am going to work when I can't freakin' see. And of course my manager seems irritated which yeah I understand cause it's a Saturday and we are going to be busy, but I am feeling like shit. So I tol dher that I was going to try and see the doc and she was like well if you can come in later that would be helpful, just give us a call. Like really? I have never called off to the salon before, I have worked feeling like shit, being dizzy, and when I was throwing up. Sorry I needed today.

I call my mom to tell her what is going on and she tells me to go to an Urgent Care cause they will take my insurance, so I found out super close to the apartment, and I woke Steve up and made him drive me. The doctor told me i have sinusitis and conjuctivitis. He wrote me some scripts, and gave me a note for work for today, and so we went to CVS dropped those off and went to get breakfast cause all I wanted was some pancakes at this point. We went to The National by the apartment. After that we got my scripts, I came home took them, and then just chilled, I threw up once and I've just been taking it easy since then. My head is still bugging me, I can almost see clearly out of my eye but it's still bugging me, and I still have a fever but it did go down some after taking medicine, so that's good.

Steve's been in a crappy mood since I woke him up, and things have not been going so well for him, he was hoping he wouldn't have to work and of course they called him with some problems, and then he wanted to play Everquest but something is going on and he can't. And I Woke him up early, it's been a rough day for him.

Well he is making some Mac and Cheese and it's almost done so I am going to stop updating and get my food on.

♥ You Know You Love Me xoxo

Workin' on my fitness

So I just signed up for a Planet Fitness membership, yay!! I was a member before and I use to go like every night but then I got lazy, lol. But I really want to lose this weight, god damn it.

So I am not looking forward to work this weekend, I am the only bather on Friday and Sunday :( I hope Amanda found out about the other store. And hopefully they have something available in the hotel for good hours.

Today has kinda been an off day for me, for some reason. I did some shopping at Target, got us a Microwave cart, and the Eclipse curtains. Then I got a hose with shower head for the sink so I can give Peanut a bath. And then I went grocery shopping at Kroger. Now I am at Steve's mom's doing laundry and watching Titanic lol.

We are getting Jets for dinner, I am getting a Greek Chicken Salad, yum! :)

Ok Kiddies thats all for now.

♥ You Know You Love Me xoxo

+ 1 more lb!

Ughh.. again this week was bad for me and I have gained yet another pound. FML. I do good for the first part of the week and then the weekend comes and I work like a crazy women and then when I get home I don't want to cook anything so I pick something up or we go out, and of course I don't eat right. But I need to get serious. I do not want to gain anymore weight.

Last night we went to dinner with Steve's mom, and I almsot got my birthday present early but then Steve changed his mind :( I was excited but oh well I can wait. We came home after just chilled. I was exhuasted because I didn't go to bed the night before until like 2:30am and then I still go tup with Steve at 8am, and all day I was busy doing stuff. Even though I feel like I didn't do anything, lol.

Today, I need to go to the bank, and hit up Target, I would like to get a Kitchen Cart for the mircowave so we have more counter space and then I want to get those Eclipse curtains, that are suppose to block out the light and some sound and help with your heating, we will see if they really work. Our window in the bedroom sucks, and you can hear everything that is happening outside of it. And it's not installted very well so the room is freezing, and of course the sun shines right in as soon as it comes up.

Well I should start my day since I slept in an extra hour :) see ya kiddies.

♥ You Know You Love Me

it's fine.

Yesterday was a pretty good day for the most part, I worked 11-7:30, where for about the first half of the day, I felt like no one really wanted me there, I fely invisible cause no one was really talking to me, like they use to. It's annoying that things are all akward now and I don't even really know why. I was just starting to feel like I was fitting in with all the girls. Guess I was wrong :(

After work, I came home and did some yoga, and then had dinner with my hunny. And then I was talking to my neighbor across the hall and she invited me over for some drinks and to hang out, so I went over there, and we made some delcious smoothies and just talked and hung out until like 1:30am. Then I came home and went to bed.

It's really nice to have a girl that I can hang out with that isn't far away! I love it. I have missed just hanging out and having girl time :)

Today is my second day off for the week, I haven't really done much but go to State Farm and meet my agent, and then I came home and cleaned the kitchen a bit, and now I am just relaxing, I asked Steve if he wanted to have lunch like an hour ago and still haven't gotten an answer. He's at work so who knows what is going on lol.

We are meeting up with his mom later for dinner and to watch a movie or play a game. I love her :)

Well I should get going. I have stuff I should be doing. See ya kiddies.

♥ You Know You Love Me xoxo

Feeling Good

Yesterday was a wonderful day off, I must say. I started out the day just lounging around the apartment with my doggys, and watching Drop Dead Diva. Then I did a little bit of cleaning.

I had my first therapy appointment yesterday at 4pm, and it went very well, I was nervous at first but once I got there and we starte dtalking it went well and I really like her. So I am going to contiune to go on Mondays at 4pm :)

When I got home from therapy, I was going to play WoW for awhile but then decided to work out instead, I started out with the EA Sports Active but I was getting annoyed with it cause the stupid censors wern't working right, so I switched to the Wii Fit Plus, and I realized I like that waay better, and I am going to try and do it everyday. I love yoga, it makes me feel great, the rest of the night I felt wonderful and still this morning I feel great. :) Weight in day probably isn't going to be as good as I hoped for this week but I don't think it's going to be awful either, I've had a couple bad meals, but ya never know. I am not going to beat myself up over it, I am just going to try harder next week. Steve decided not to do his diet cause it was kind of retarded so He's going to go get his money back, thank god.

I have to work today 11-7:30 in the salon, I am hoping it won't be too horrible. Durning the week usually isn't too bad. But ya never know, I have no days int he hotel this week which kinda sucks, but I still have 32 hours this week. Next week starts my weeks of not having to work on Sundays, yay!!!! I am excited about that. I need to check the schedule today and see if my boss ever changed my Tuesday next week, cause I have an appointment at Douglas J to learna bout the educator program. I gace her a 3 week notice I think that's plenty of time. So we will see if not I am going to have to talk to her, and I am sure it won't be pretty which sucks.

When I come home from work tonight I am going to do my yoga again :) I am excited about it.

I ordered some bras from VS today. I got 4 of the Perfect One Push-ups cause I have one already and I basically wear it all the dame time cause it's my favorite so I figured I should get a couple more since I barely wear any of my other ones. I can't wait to get them :) Last night their website was being retarded and it wouldn't let me sign in I was getting pissed, lol.

Well I have to let Peanut out and start getting ready to leave for work, see ya later kiddies.

♥ You Know You Love Me xoxo

omfgicanttakeanymore

Saturday was a terrible day for me. Work was crazy busy like always, and of course I came home and cried, While I was on lunch one of my dog's probably knocked over it's water like it had done number of times durning it's time and got all wet, and one of my co-workers, had to stop what she was doing and blow dry the dog a bit, like that's the end of the world, right? Well then the owner wasn't happy that the dog still had an undercoat, well when you only bring the dog to the groomer twice a year and you yourself doesn't brush it, a 30 minute brushing isn't going to help that much. So after I got off of a crappy lunch, I got into a little fight with Steve, which already had me upset, I walked back into the salon just to get screamed at and told that I need to learn how to brush my dogs better and make sure that they are dried and when I tried to explain myself I couldn't so I just let her yell at me. I wanted to yell back at her but I knew I would just look stupid. And if it got back to my boss I wouldn't look bad for yelling at a co-worker in front of all the others.

So after I got yelled out and humiliated I went into the back to finish my other dog that randomly showed up, and I just cried and cried. And then when I came home and started telling Steven what happened he made me feel like crap too, so instead of crying in front of him and his friend I went out into the hallway and cried, and my new neighbor who just moved in, popped her head out and invited me in, so I went in and we talked and I found out she's super nice, and I like her alot. I'm so glad she was home.

I did not want to go to work today, I was seriously considering to call off, but I didn't want to screw Bri over, so I went in and it started out very well, and then it gradually felt like it started to fall apart but then Bri came to the rescue and saved me and I got to take my lunch which I thought I wasn't going to get. But then the same girl who yelled at me yesterday started giving me attitude again because I think she tohought I was the one who moved the dryer off her dog, when I didn't but since I was the only one back there, she gave me attitude about it. I am getting real sick of getting attitude.

I talked to Amanda today to see what I would have to do to transfer because I might seriously consider transfering to the Utica store. Cause I don't think that I won't be able go back to the hotel, and I don't think I want to be in the salon anymore. Plus we might have to move, I have to dig out the lease but I heard froma neigbor that the apartments are going to be sending out a notice about the dog poop and that if people don't start picking up after their dog's, we won't be able to have dogs and I have to see if they are allowed to do that. If they do they better not give us shit about getting out of our lease early cause I am not giving up my dogs and they have no where else to go. Ughh what a weekend.

After a delcious dinner at Azteca with my Steven, I am now home relaxing and watching these great new show I discovered on Netflix, called Drop Dead Diva. I have been watching it for three days now. I am almost done with Season One and I really hope there are more seasons to watch.

I am done updating for now. Later kiddos

♥ You Know You Love Me xoxo

2lbs+

I was right, when I stepped on the scale yesterday morning it confirmed that I gained weight, it wasn't as much as I thought but still it sucked to see that I had gained 2lbs. But it motivated me to do good this week and from now on. I think it's really going to help that Steve is on a diet too. And I have to remember not to buy any junk when I go food shopping. I have gotten in working out three times this week, which I am proud of :) Work is a work out too lol, I am on my feet running around, lifting dogs, moving all around. So that should help me out too.

I am not really looking forward to this weekend. I am still scheduled to work Saturdays and Sundays for this week and next week, cause Lindsay took of this weekend, and Bri took off next weekend, and Lindsay doesn't want to just throw the new bathers on to a weekend short handed which I can understand. Hopefully this weekend won't be so bad. We will see.

I don't go into work today until 3pm, which is good and bad, like I am glad I have time to do stuff but then again it's like how dumb to go in just for 5.5 hours. I have to have a manager check my hours tomorrow before I leave to see if I am going to go over 40 hours at all and if I am going to I will get to leave work early. But I don't think I will since I didn't work last Sunday and I am only working 5.5 hours at the hotel this week.

I might need a nap lol.

After work, I am going to Steve's moms for dinner and to pick up Girl Scout cookies for Thomas. Hopefully I'm not dead tired.

Alrighty well I am going to go back to relaxing.

♥ You Know You Love Me xoxo

^^breakdown^^

All day I have been feeling kinda blah with myself. Like I know tomorrow when I step on the scale to weigh in that it's going to tell me I gained weight because Friday, Saturday, Sunday, Monday, and Tuesday we ate bad.

My best friend posted a really cute pic of herself today, and she looks so good in it, and I got jealous. I wish I could be as pretty as she is, I would even go for half as pretty as she is. She has always been beautiful since the day I have met her, and I will admit I have been jealous of her a numorous times. Then I saw the girl who moved in across the hall and she's super pretty and skinny too, and this is when I lost it. I started to cry, and I even asked Steve if he was really even attracted to me. Then I worked out which I hoped would help me feel a little better, but it really didn't.

Then I made my nice healthy dinner of 7oz of chicken breast, some corn, and a reducded fat cresent, and I couldn't even eat the whole thing cause I felt so gross. Plus the corn juice made everything taste like the corn. So I threw half of my dinner away, which now I think I already complained about this.

I got into the shower and this is when it really hit me, and I felt totally grossed out with myself. Then Steve pops his head in cause he had just gotten home from work, and asked me what was wrong, and of course I say nothing, and of course he knows better so he says we will talk when I get out. He leaves and I start to cry. I get out of the shower and go straight to the bed, he comes in and I start to bawl my eyes out and tell him, I wish I was just pretty. And of course he tells me that I am pretty. And hugs me, and makes me feel a little better. Then he says he will always be here to pick me up when I have fallen, how sweet is that? He's the best ever.

I still feel kinda blah, and I know I will feel even more blah tomorrow morning after I weigh in, but I just have to keep focused and follow my weight watchers, and keep working out. I know I can do it.

I can't wait to start therapy, lol. It's going to help so much.

Alrighty, well even though it's only 9:30pm I think I might go to bed. See ya later kiddies.

♥ You Know You Love Me xoxo

Happy Hump Day

It's Wednesday, which means it's the middle of the week. Which means my craziness is about to start soon.

Today was my last day off for the week, and all I really wanted to do was lay around and do nothing. But the apartment was a little bit messy so I had to do some cleaning, and I had to finish our laundry. My dad stopped by and picked up the toys I bought for Matylda and took the rest of Steve's birthday cake, cause we both started our diets and can not have cake in the house lol. I don't trust myself at all.

I then ventured to Walmart to find some rain boots but they didn't have any that fit which sucked. So then I stopped by Kmart and they had super cute ones but I need all black ones for work, so I had to get Men's of course. But they are shorter then the ones I have and they don't have removeable liners. So I got those, and I got a new game card for WoW cause mine was going to expire soon. And I got some inserts for my boots, gel inserts lol.

Then I came home and worked out, and then I started to make dinner, which I didn't even eat much of, I made chicken tenders, cresents, and corn. And my corn kinda ruined everything because the juice got all over and everything tasted like corn. So I threw half of it away and made a peanut butter sandwich which really didn't fill me up cause I use thin bread. Blah I hate dieting, but I want to be skinny damn it.

So I am finally relaxing. And watching Top Model, I got caught up on all my shows this week so far. I just want to shower and do nothing the rest of the night. I don't even want to play any games, but I know Steve will want to even though he's not even home from work yet. I am actually kind of tired.

I start therapy on Monday, I can't wait. I am really hoping it will help me out a lot, I am so sick of being anxious and crying for stupid shit. And I would like to control my OCD behaviors. I noticed it's only when I know I am going to be gone for awhile, like off to work or when I go to visit my parents.

I got jeans from VS and they fit but are super tight, so those are my goal jeans, I hope to fit in them in a month. I got this right? lol.

Alright kiddies, time for a shower and then bed, maybe lol. I know I am lame.

♥ You Know You Love Me xoxo