???? I'm not sure.

Hey there, I offically started work on Saturday, and it was pretty great to be back. I missed the school so much. But... yeah there is a but, I never thought there would be either, but.. lol, I am feeling like the outsider again, I don't know if it's just because I was gone for two months or what. I felt this way when I had first started the instructor program, and then after awhile the feeling went away, so hopefully it will happen again. A lot of the students were excited to have me back, and some of the instructors were too. It's probably me just being paranoid. Time will only tell, plus it has only been one day, and it was a Saturday which are pretty stressful at the school. I am working tonight and it's going to go great!

Two more weeks left in this crappy apartment, I can not wait, I hope the time flys by. The school was nice enough to give me next weekend off so I can help move my stuff, which will be great, I am hoping we can get it all done on Friday and then just spend Saturday and Sunday getting everything in it's place. The more I can get done over the weekend the better. Then it will be time to start saving for some new furniture and paint! I am excited to be painting this time around.

Things with Steve and I have been pretty great. He got a car, but of course like all used cars things go wrong, so It's back at Dee's getting looked at. And he has actively started looking for a new job. Hopefully something good will come his way because he deserves it very much. I am sick of the stress and B.S. from his current job. It makes him moody, and cranky, and gets him sick cause he's working more then anything else.

I have been feeling like I'm in a funk lately, and kind of home sick. I just wish I had more friends out this way, or have more of my friends be more willing to come and visit or even try to hang out with me, I don't even mind driving out to see them but none of them except for Ricki even try to make plans with me, they act like I have fallen off the face of the earth or something. I think if I had more girl friends to hang out with, I wouldn't be feeling this way. A bunch of girls from work, were going out Saturday after work, and I kind of wanted to go but didn't want to invite myself, and no one even asked me if I wanted to go. It kinda sucks. But who knows maybe after awhile they will invite me out. I have mentioned to Julia a few times that I would love to go out with all of them. Again only time will tell.

Well, I should probably start getting ready for work now. It was good getting that out.

♥ You Know You Love Me xoxo

Holy Crap!

A lot has been going on over here lately, and that's why I haven't not had a chance to update.

I got to see my brother and my new sis in law which was awesome, and I got Steven to play some corn hole, with my papa, sowers, and I, it was a lot of fun.

In other news, I passed State Boards, and got offered a job at Douglas J. I am just now waiting for the state to process my application and payment for my license and as soon as that is done, I can start working. I have no idea what my hours are going to be, but I don't even care at this moment, lol. I am just thrilled to be working my dream job :)

Steven got very sick last week, and seriously almost died which would have been terrible. He got pnuemonia, so he was out for a week. I took good care of him though, and he is slowly getting back to 100%.

Last Wednesday night, I saw a mouse in our apartment, oh yay! I ran out and got some traps that night. And then I called maintence Thursday morning, he came out just looked and said he would get some traps. And then later on in the day he told me they were calling a pest control company to come out, so this makes me think they are having a bit of an issue with it. So Friday the pest control company came out and all he did was put some glue traps in my apartment, but I already had some decon, and some other glue traps set. Apparently he did mor ein the basement but I am not even 100% sure that happened. So this morning, I check the trap and there is this little gray mouse stuck and he was stilla live, and I felt like a horrible person carrying him out to the dumpster and throwing him in alive :( But I can't have him in my apartment. I reset the trap and still have the decon down. I am so sick of dealing with the mice.

THANKFULLY!!!! We will only have another month, because today we went and looked at townhouses and they only had one that was going to be available in October and a couple already came and looked at it but didn't do anything with it, and she said she had another couple coming to look at it, and we loved it so we applied, got approved and left a deposit, so we can move after October 14th, yay!!! I am so happy. It's 1400 sq ft, 2 bedrooms 1 1/2 baths, basement, yard, very nice, I am so excited, it is going to be so much better for us. We are thinking of either getting an invisbile fence or rigging it up some how, we will figure it out though.

Packing and actually moving is going to suck, but I can't wait to get out of this apartment!!!!

Well it's getting late so I should be getting to bed.

Nighty Night Kitty Cats!

Good Times

I had a blast last night with Ricki at the wedding recepition. I hope she did too! We danced, took photos in the photo booth and on my camera and drank a little :)

This morning I got the apartment cleaned. And now I am waiting for Steve to get out of the shower so I can put a face on before we head out to Hines Park for my brother Jeremy's MI reception, he got married on Aug 12th in Cali, where he lives but they were nice enought to throw a party here as well since alot of us who live here in MI couldn't make it to Cali. It should be interesting. I plan on staying about 2 hours, and then when we get back Nik and his friend Jessica are suppose to be coming over to hang out with us. I also invited our friend Laura, but I don't think she is going to make it :-/

I got a letter yesterday from the apartments about how the year has flown by and it's time to renew our lease, and how much it would be and blah blah blah but guess what?! We are not renewing, I do not like it here anymore. And I would really like to find a backyard for my puppies. I found a couple websites that we can look at houses for rent on. We will probably start seriously looking end of September since the lease is done in November. And hopefully by then I will know eaxactly where I am going to be working and what not. I really hope it's at Dougie J. I want to start my career as an educator already, lol. But i know I need to get my license first, hopefully that will be on Tuesday!!

Well I am going to go clean up the mop bucket real quick and then start getting ready.

Check ya later kitty kats!

♥ You Know You Love Me xoxo and I'll leave you with a pic from last night :)

Well hello kitty kats

So it's been awhile since I have updated so let's recap the last couple months.

April 18th, I started the Educator program at Douglas J, and I loved it so much. It was the best choice for me. I graduated from the program August 10th. And I had an interview with the HR department, and now I am just waiting. I am taking my state boards on Tuesday for my educator license :)

I ended up quitting my job at Petsmart in May, there was just no way I could have worked in the grooming salon and went to school and I had no idea if I was going to be able to go back to the hotel. So it was the best decision at that time. I miss the doggys.

I started working at LUV Manicures and Pedicures this week, I only worked two days and then when I called to get my schedule for next week, it was very odd cause she said she had worked on the schedule already but she could fit me in on a couple days. Don't do me any favors, gee's. I thought I was going to get a set schedule, and I thought I would be busy but I'm not so I am looking for a new job. I emailed the owner and asked him about what is going on cause it's kinda crappy.

Steve and I have been doing well lately. He has been very busy with work, but we still make time for eachother. We are going to be looking for a new place soon, which I am excited about, I really want to find a house that we can rent so I can have a backyard for my doggys. I found this website that has houses litsed on it from leasing companies so hopefully we will find something.

Tonight I am going on a date with Ricki, we are going to Jenny's wedding, hopefully it will be fun. I bought a new dress, new shoes, and make-up. I just painted my nails And I did my toes yesterday.

I colored my hair lastnight as well, I was very red with like orange bangs, and now I back to being a brunette. I missed it :) Steve keeps calling me brownie now and I love it.

But I should start cleaning up and messing around with my hair. Gotta figure out some way to do my hair.

See ya later kiddies

♥ You Know You Love Me xoxo

Happy Monday.

Yup I said Happy Monday, cause it's my day off. And even though it's wet and semi-gloomy outside, the tempertaure is pretty nice, according to my phone it's 63 degrees outside already, and it's only 9:30am. Maybe the sun will come out later too.

So I called into work today to see if Donna was there, I figured there is no sense in driving all the way out there to talk to her, if she's not there. I decided that I am going to ust wait and see if I can get back into the PetsHotel and see how that goes durning school, cause the extra little cash would probably help, and then I would still have my insurance, and I have always been happy working in the hotel. So hopefully I can get it figured out soon.

I have to do some grocery shopping today, hopefully I have money on food card. I have to call and check, I don't know what day they reload it every month, I should probably just hop on the website and find that out, lol. DERP! I am getting a pedicure today with Rachael, that will be nice, it's long over due, lol. SO that will be really nice. I wanna get the apartment clean too since Steve's mom's dogs are coming to stay with us Tuesday until Wednesday.

Well I should get started. See ya kiddies.

♥ You Know You Love Me xoxo

Holy stressed the fuck out!

Lately I have been thinking about if I want to quit my job while I am in school or keep it. It kinda all happened when I was talking to the PetsHotel manager and she informed me that shit might need me on Sundays too, fuck that! I don't want to go to school Mon-Fri 9-4:30pm and then work Sat and Sun, I would lose my freakin' mind.

Saturday I woke up and I wasn't feeling all that great, so I took a shower to try and ease it all away, it helped a little bit, then Steven woke up and we starte dtalking about it all, and he told me to do what I thought was best. And then I talked to my friend Ricki about it as well, they both helped me relax about it alot. So then I went to work, and it was ok for the first hour or so, and then it turned to hell, more so then usual, I had 2 dogs at 1pm, 2 at 2pm, 2 at 3pm, 2 at 4pm, 2 at 5pm, and 1 at 6pm, and they were almost all FURMinators which take a lot longer then normal bath and brushes. So around 5pm, when I only had one of the 10 done, I kinda started to panic, and I got super dizzy and started to feel sick to my stomach, why was I so behind you ask? Well I have to take care of any walk ins as well. ANd everyone thinks it's a great idea to come into Petsmart on a Saturday to get their dog's nails trimmed. Hey thanks! Like I don't enough to do. So I went into the back and started to cry, Melissa came back, and walked me to the break room, and got me a pop and a slice of pizza and tried to help me calm down, which was really nice of her. Then one of the store managers came in and was talking to me, and I told her i just couldn't take it anymore, and I went home. I have no idea if I will be in trouble or not, but right now I really don't care. I am seriously thinking about going in and putting in my two weeks tomorrow.

I came home and explained everything to Steve cause I was home 3 hours early, and he had Steph and Nik over, so then we all played some games and watched Tangled, and I felt so much better after just relaxing and not worrying about anything. I was actually up until 1am, and I slept in until 10am today, that's a first for me, lol. usually I am up at 8am.

So I got up and took the dogs out, and it was so nice out. Then Steve and I went and got food, and then did some running around, and then I took Nelly on a walk, and then decided to go to Target and get some patio chairs so I could sit outside and have Peanut in his pen, and Nelly on the stalk since it was super nice, so I sat outside for a bit and Steve joined me but he also had to work, cause he's on call this month. Then I came back in and played The Sims for a bit, and then went back and sat outside again and read some cosmo :) So it has been a prett good Sunday. I came bac in and played some more sims, and now I am just chilling, probably going to hit the hay soon, cause I want to start getting up at 7am this week, to help get use to it before school starts on the 18th!!

Found out my friend Julia is going to be in class with me, and that there are two others int he class, so it should be fun. I really hope everything goes al I plan and I get to work at the ROyal Oak school when it's all said and done. I am going to bust my ass for this place. :)

Alrighty, well I should probably t ake the dogs out one more time before I hit the hay.

♥ You Know You Love Me xoxo

TeN

#10 Talk about your pets, or the ones you'd like to have.
Right now we have a chocolate lab named Nelly, who I have had since she was a pup and she's going to be 12 this June, She's my old bitty lol. And we also have Peanut, a long hair chihuahua who is going to 7 in September. I would really like to get a French Bulldog at some point, and a weiner dog.

#9

#9 Favorite meme at the moment.

I will have to go with Facebook since it's the only one I use.

#7

OK, I am going to change up #7 a little bit.

#7 how did you come across blogspot? and how has it changed youe life.
I don't really remember how I came across it the first time, but this second time it was because of my friend Ricki. And it really hasn't changed my life, lol. It's nice to have some place to come and vent to though.

And I'll do #8 as well since i'm a little behind.

#8 Are you a fitness guru or a coach potato? Explain your fitness habits.
Ok so when I really put my mind to it, I can be a fitness guru for sure. Right after high school I was determined to lose weight, and I joined Weight Watchers, and did the tredmill everyday, and I lost 40lbs, then I fell off the band wagon, gained the 40lbs back plus some cause I quit smoking. And then I got back on and I have lost 35lbs again, and I am back to my junior high size, which is nice. And once I get back to school and on a set schedule again, I am going to hit the gym hard and start weight watchers again, with no screw ups!

Day 6

#6 Your favorite season, and why
My favorite season would have to be spring and fall, I love that you can just go outside in a hoodie and a pair of jeans and be comfortable, I hate the freezing cold, and I hate when it's super hott out. So these two seasons give me the perfect weather. I am excited for spring to be here soon :)

Today was a pretty easy day at work, I did rebooks until like 1:45pm, that's when my 2pm appointment showed up, which it was a Papillion, so it took me about a half an hour to finish him up. And then my next appointment was at 3:30pm, which was a German Shepard mix, who was terrible for his nails, but good for everything else, and then my 4pm appointments, two yorkies, the owner decided to get them haircuts, so Lindsay took them. When I was coming back from lunch I stopped into the hotel to make sure I had my schedule right or tomorrow, and Donna asked me about wanting to come back and work there on my one day a week, cause I had mentioned it to Steve on Saturday and he said something to her, and I told her that I wanted to, so she told me I had to talk to Lindsay, so I asked Lindsay if I could go back after the new bathers got trained. And she seemsed mad but said she would talk to Donna and work something out, so I guess we will see.

After work I ventured out to GC to see my mom to get some $ from her, cause i am aking the dogs to the vet on Friday, and of course while i am out there she's like oh I guess I could have just gave the money to papa and he could have depsoited it into the bank, derp!! lol I could have saved a trip. Oh well, at least I got to see Ezzi Cupcake, I miss her.

I stopped and got Steven and I Mickey D's on the way home, and now we are both just kinda chilling. I don't work until 3pm tomorrow, it's good and bad, lol. I don't have to get up early but then it's like why go in for 6 hours. but oh wells. I miss the hotel.

Ok kiddies, that's all I got.

♥ You Know You Love Me xoxo

Kat Von D Tattoo Concealer

After talking to my friend Ricki about my stupid tattoo/work siututation, she suggested me trying Kay Von D's Tattoo make-up which she has a Tattoos Eraser Pencil and a Concealer. I was going to purchase both from Sephora, but they only had the concealer so I figured wth it's better then nothing, I will try it and come back for the pencil. You are suppose to use them together for maximum coverage.

I have two tattoos on my neck that are giving me a problem at work which I think is just stupid but whatever, so here they are normal





and here they are with the concealer on them





Looks pretty good if you ask me. It should be good enough for work, and if not I don't know what to tell them. I am sure once I get the pencil too, it will help a lot, I will probably be able to get it on Wednesday.

So as my first review of a products on here, I will say Kat Von D's tattoo concealer is a win.

♥ You Know You Love Me xoxo

#5

Tell us your 3 favorite colors
My favorite colors are black, it goes with everything and makes you look good, Pink because I am just a girlie girl and I love it, and Silver because it's so nice and sparkley

So there you have it my three fave colors :)

♥ You Know You Love Me xoxo

Catch Up

Ok let's get this outta the way and get caught up on this 30 day challenge.

#3 Your favorite television program
THis is very hard for me to chooise because I have a couple but if I have to pick just one I would have to say Sex and The City. When my cousin first told me about it I thought it sounded kind of dumb, and then we watched the second to last episode of the last season and I fell in love and went out and got Season One and started from the begining. I was bummed I didn't get into when it first came out. The first movie was really good, the second one was alright. I heard they might be making a third but it's going to be based before the girls met, and she you how they all met. Which would be great since i just finished reading The Carrie Diaries.

#4 Write about your closet friend(s)
I have never been a person to have a lot of really close friends, I usually have one or two and try to hold on to them tightly. Right now my best friend is my boyfriend Steven. He is so wonderful, and has always been here for me. And he supports me 100% on almost everything that I do. My friend Katie and I have been talking a lot more as well, we met when I was 7 years old and we have always kept in touch. We use to write letters to each other, lol. I also have made a couple new friends that I would consider close Bri and Christina. We talk almost every day, which is nice. Steve and I have went out a double date with Bri and her bf. That was fun.

There ya go I am all caught up :)

♥ You Know You Love Me xoxo

Body Modifactions.

Ok So I am a couple days late for Day 2 of this 30 day challenge, but that's ok right? lol.

2. Talk about your piercings or tattoos, if you have any.
Ok, so I have 19 tattoos, I believe, I kind of lost count but I am pretty sure that's how many I have. I love all my tattoos for the most part, that sounds bad I know but lately at work my tattoos have been giving me some trouble. It's kinda retarded if you ask me, but whatever. If it's such a big deal they shouldn't have hired me in the first place, because it's not like I hid them or just got them, they were well aware of them. So now i Have to come up with some idea of how to cover the ones on my neck, cause I got my final warning yesterday. This is the first job I've had that has made such a big deal about it, and I have worked in retail before. On to my piercings, I have my eyebrow, nose, tounge, and lip done, and I just recently started gauging my ears, I am at an 8g right now. I would really like to get my monroe done, and I think I was to get my ears to a 2g, but I am going to have to wait and see about my work situtation first.My tattoos and piercings are me, I couldn't see myself without them.

OK so how about a real update since it's been a few days. Friday was my day off like I said on my previous post, I didn't get cleaning done, well I lied I did clean the bathroom a bit and the kitchen but nothing else. I rant to the bank and depsotied money and cashed a check, and I paid rent, and then hit up Target for stuff that we needed, and then I went to Steve's work so we could have lunch together, and so I could see Amanda's St. Bernard puppy, Sadie, she is adorable! I ended up being there for awhile cause Amanda asked me to watch Saide while she ran to the store. After that I went to Jackie's to drop off Steve's rent check to her, and then I hit up Game Stop and got Steve and I a couple games. And then I came home and was going to start cleaning, but took Nelly on a walk instead and then drew up a couple tattoo ideas for my friend. Then Steve came home and we chilled for a bit, and then Nik and Steph came over and we all went to dinner, and then came back to the apartment and hung out for a bit, played Dominion and then I was tired so I went to bed, and they played another game or two, I'm not sure lol. And then Steve came to bed. It was a really good Friday.

Saturday I had to work 12:30-9pm, which I hate, I really hate that shift, I would rather work 7-3:30pm on Saturdays, but I don't think I get a say so in it. The day started out alright, I wasn't too busy, and then everytime I thought I would get a chance to take my lunch another dog would show up, so I didn't get to take my lunch until 5:15pm, which sucked but at least work had gotten us all lunch for being accident and incident free for 100+ days, so there was a ton of food. I ended up getting bitched at twice for my tattoos on my neck, they said it was my final warning, and that I would get taken off the schedule. And then I got bitched at for my eyebrow which you don't even see it, the only reason they saw it was because I had my bangs pulled back cause I was putting eye drops it. It's so dumb. So after this kinda crap day, I come home and I have a letter from my insurance company, bascially saying that I we $233 to Concentra Urgent Care for when I went in for my strep throat, cause the services were given after my termination date, I have no idea wth is going on but I for sure don't have an extra $233 laying around, that is insane, so I am going to have to call on Monday and find out what the hell is going on. And if for some reason I am not getting insurance anymore, then they need to stop taking money from my check and I might look for a new job, becuase the only reason I was going to stay on for one day a week when I started school was to keep my insurance. So I guess we will see.

I can't believe I start school in two weeks, it's so crazy, I can't wait! I hope that I do well, cause I would really like to work there after I am done, then I won't have to worry about Petsmart anymore.

I was going to do some cleaning today but I would rather hang out with my hunny so I did a little bit, and I might do a little mor euntil Steve wakes up but once he wakes up I just want to hang with him, we are going to go to Costco today and pick up some stuff. And then proably just play some games together. It should be a nice day.

Well I am going to get going, see ya kiddies later.

♥ You Know You Love Me xoxo

Well Hello There.

It's been a couple days since I have posted. Wups! lol. So Let's see, this week has been alright I would say.

Monday I had to work 7-3pm in the PetsHotel, and then I had to rush home, take the dogs out, change clothes, and get to therapy. Which that has been going very well, I really like Rebecca. Even Steve said something about it the other day how it seems to be already helping me, which I will agree. Yay!!! A good $20/week spend if you ask me. And hopefully I will still be able to go when I start school, she said she has a 7:30pm on Mondays available, and might even beable to do 6pm cause her 5pm is moving and her current 6pm wants to move to the 5pm slot, so we will see :) After therapy what did I do??? Ohh.. I don't remember, lol. Monday was so long ago, lol.

Tuesday I had to work 11-7:30 in the grooming salon, which that has been going pretty well, I guess. I mean there are still some days where I am like wtf! do they even want me here. But anyways, after work I just came home and chilled.

Wednesday, was my day off yay! I went to the gym, and did some running around, I had to get more bleach, and I had to get a new razor for school, and I had to pick up hair color for my mom. Then I stopped in and visited Steve at work. And then I came home took, Bella for a walk, and then when Steve got home we went out to eat at Boston's to celebrate me getting into Douglas J's educator program, It was made offical on Wednesday :) I signed all the paperwork and they got my loan money. Then after dinner, Steve and I came home and beat Resident Evil 5, which felt like it took forever cause i got super tired, and the last boss was a pain in the ass.

Today, I had to work 11-7:30 in the salon again, but I ended up being able to leave at 5pm, which was nice because I had to go out to Garden City to see my parents, and then I stopped by Mark and Mandi's, to highlight and cut Mandi's hair. It was nice seeing everyone. I just got home a little bit ago actually. But I made $60 and I also finally got my Sprint Rebate check, yay!!

So, tomorrow I need to hit up the bank, and deposit all the checks I have, lol. And I need to pay rent, I also want to look into new blinds for the bedroom. And I need to clean the apartment, I'd rather do it tomorrow then have to waste my day Sunday doing it when I could just be hanging with Steve :)

So anyways, my friend posted this 30 day challenge thing, and it seems pretty cool, so I am going to do it also. THe pic is kinda crappy but you can read it if you click on it.



So here is Day one:
1. Your Middle name, and how you feel about it.
My middle name is Lynn, and I feel like it is too common, and kind of boring. Kinda like my first name as well. lol.

Alright kiddies, that's all I have for you for today, it's late 11:23pm, and I am getting tired.

♥ You Know You Love Me xoxo

Weekend's end :(

Aw.. I am sad tha this is the last day to my wonderful weekend with my hunny. We usually don't get to spend a whole weekend together.

I woke up feeling kinda blah this morning, my throat is fine, it actually hasn't been bothering me since I started my antibotics on Tuesday. But my nose and sinuses are driving me bananas, they will not clear up. I have been taking Zyrtec once int he morning, and once again in the evening, and it helps for most of the day and night but it would just be nice to not have to deal with it at all.

So today or tomorrow, probably tomorrow, I need to grab ALL my hair stuff and go through it and make sure I have everything I need for school, cause if I don't I can buy whatever I need at cost through the school. Right now, I know for sure I need the FHI Hair Dryer, which is amazing cause I have wanted one since last year when the classes after us in cos school started getting them in their kits. I also know I need a new razor because I hate the one I have, but I might just buy that on my own at Sally's depending on what they can get me through the school. I also need a mirror cause I broke mine, which that I will probably get on my own also cause I am sure I can just pick one up at the dollar store. But I am almost 100% positive I need all the Marilyn brushes, cause those came out when I was finishing up school, but I need to really look at the brushes I have. I have another meeting with Macy on Wednesday, and I want to figure out all what I need before then, so I can talk to her about getting them.

I have no idea what is in store for me today, lol. I am sure Steve and I are going to play more RE5, it was a lot of fun. We played basically all day yesterday, took breaks for food and stuff but that was about it.

I can't stay up too late tonight, I have to work 7-3 in the PetsHotel, and then I have therapy at 4pm. SO I am going to have to rush right over to therapy, and then hopefully I am feeling better so I can go to the gym tomorrow as well.

Money has been stressing me out hardcore the past week, and I am sure it will next week too cause in the past two weeks, I have only worked 4 days. My check on Friday was for $86 for two days, and then I only worked two days this week cause I got sick, but thankfully, I am back to working in the PetsHotel a couple days a week, and I got 38 hours for this coming week which will be nice and it will save me just in time for rent.

Alright, well I should probably go clean up the apartment a bit before Steve wakes up cause I know once he wakes up I won't do it lol.

♥ You Know You Love Me xoxo

Hello Saturday.

Ugh SO I have been sick basically all damn week, which has sucked ass. I called off on Tuesday, and then went in and worked Thursday and Friday. Friday wasn't too bad because I was working in the PetsHotel, so I didn't really have to do much, which was nice. Working in the salon takes a lot outta me, even more so when I am sick.

Steve ended up getting sick on Tuesday, and he didn't go into work on Tuesday, and then he worked from home on Wednesday and Thursday, and then he tried going in on Friday but they sent him home. Today we were suppose to go to the Music as a Weapons tour with KoRn and DIsturbed but I decided to sell the tickets cause I knew neither one of us would probably feel up to going. So his co-worker Amanda came and got them yesterday, and with the money I got, we went out and bought Resident Evil 5 and Magic cards, We drafted last night and played 2 game sof Magic, and then went to bed.

Today we finished up our last game of Magic, and of course Steve won, caus ehe's a big cheater lol, No I'm just playing but he does always win, damn it. And the rest of the day we have been relaxing on the couch played RE 5. It's pretty damn instense. Oh, we did leave the apartment to take back our 3 bag fulls of pop cans, and we got more pop, and some other things we needed, and then got lunch. It's been nice having so many days off with him, but I wish we wern't sick.

I seriously can't wait to move out, I am kind of sick of this place already, and we have only been here since November, but things have changed since Crystal the manager left. Only a little longer I guess, and then we can look for something bigger and better, and by then I will hopefully be working for DJ and making more monies!!!!

Alrighty well I think it's time for more RE5 :)

♥ You Know You Love Me xoxo

Can't Wait to Move

Ok so a little while ago, I am taking my dog, Nelly out for a walk, she's a chocolate lab mix. She looks like a chocolate lab but not as big. Anyways, we are walking our usual route and she stops and pee's where she always does, and the lady that lives in the apartment right there opens her bedroom window, and yells at me saying that Nelly poop'd there yesterday and that I didn't clean it up. I was like umm what? And then she processed to ask me why I wasn't cleaning up after her right now, and I said she pee'd!! And the lady was like oh, and closed the window. For a pet-friendly apartment complex it's not very friendly to it's pet owners lately and it's driving me nuts. I seriously can't wait to move. Steve and I have already talked about trying to get a house or town house when this lease is up, something with a back yard so I don't have to deal with this bullshit.

I started to look a little on-line the other day after we talked about it just to see how much we were looking at, and it's not too bad, there was actually a 3 bedroom house on CL's for rent for like $600 which is not bad, and there were pics and it looked decent and it was in Royal Oak, that's where we would like to venture to after this. And I can't wait.

Ok I am done bitching for now.

♥ You Know You Love Me xoxo

Great News....

My isnurance doesn't cover an ENT doctor so I have no idea if I will be able to get my tonsils out or not anytime soon. :(

Steve and I have just been being mopey around the house. I went and picked up his rx since I am feeling better then he is. He did wake up for a little while but now he's back resting, I should have done that yesterday but I hate sleeping the days away. Even when I'm sick.

I got to play the sims for a bit and then I took a break to watch some more Glee. I still can't decide if I like this show, lol. It's a bit retarded sometimes, lol.

Ok.. I lost track of what I wanted to write about.

♥ You Know You Love Me xoxo

boo...you whore.

So I have been battling Strep Throat since Sunday night, it's been wonderful. Like i said when I woke up Monday, I felt terrible, well yesterday was even worse then Monday. I slept like complete shit Monday night, and finally at like 7am, I was like this is retarded, I called into work which I really didn't want to do, but I really had no choice, they wouldn't have wanted me there, I promise. I went and laid back down for a bit but that got me no where, Steve woke up feeling like shit too. I called his doctor cause I looked her up and she accepts my insurance, and I figured it would be easier to drive 2 seconds to her, then 45 mins to Dr. Kay, but when I called to try and make an appointment, they didn't have any for new patients, so I ended up just going back to the urgent care right by our apartment, that I had went to for my eye.

I had to sit at urgent care for an hour before I was taken back into an exam room, the doc came in and he was super nice, I liked him a lot. If I knew I would get him everytime, I would just always go there. I didn't have a fever but I was pretty close to having one, and he took a swap of my throat and said it would take about 10 mins for results, he came back like 2 mins later and said as soon as he put the swab in whatever it came back positive right away for strep, which I kind of knew already cause I get it every year, which I had mentioned this to him, and he said I should probably go see a Ear, Nose, and Throat specialist about getting my tonsils out which will help me not get strep so much. I'm not looking forward to that.

Steve ended up going and seeing his doctor, which she took a swab of his throat but told him it would take til Thursday to get results and didn't give him any medicine or anything, which I thought was completely strange. She said to just stay away from people and get rest and if things changed to give her a call back. Now I am kind of glad I didn't go to her, cause I would have been dieing without some antibotics.

SO yesterday we both laid around and relaxed almost all day. I watched more of season one of Glee, which I still haven't decicded if I like the show or not yet. It's been nice being home with Steve cause we usually don't get all days together but it sucks that we are both sick cause we don't even really want to be by each other lol.

TOday I am feeling a bit better but I am still going to take it easy cause I have to work the next two days and I don't want to be worse off at work.

I cleaned up a bit today, there were snot rags all over the place from both of us, and the sink was full of dishes which I hate so I took care fo that and I am not doing anything else for the rest of the day but lay around and watch Glee and maybe play some Sims and/or WoW depending on how my head is feeling.

Alrighty kiddies, I hope all of you arn't sick or get sick, cause it is awful.

♥ You Know You Love Me xoxo

Hate being sick

Yesterday I felt like I was hung over, but I didn't even drink at all over the weekend.

I cleaned the apartment yesterday, and then we just relaxed, we hit up Target and got a SD card for my computer and now it runs great. Nick came over and we all played some games, and then I got super tired, so I went to bed.

When I woke up this morning I felt like a truck hit me, my head hurt, my throat was sore, and my nose was running. I took some airbourne, ate some breakfast and hit the gym, thought I was starting to feel better but was wrong, I have felt like crap all day. But even though I felt crummy, I still got all the laundry done and I've been watching season one of Glee. It's a crazy ass show, lol.

I am about to take some Nyquil and call it a damn night. Blah.

♥ You Know You Love Me xoxo

Woo hoo, This girl is going back to school...

I got the offical word from Macy yesterday in an email. And I am good to start school on April 18th!!!! Yay!!! So excited.

I told Donna, the manager at the PetsHotel that I would be starting work and she really didn't seem to care, and just said that if they don't need me in the salon on Saturdays, she would use me :) And then I told my manager in the salon, and she didn't seem to happy about it, I mean yeah it sucks, and I didn't mean to screw them, but I don't want to be a groomer, and I love Douglas J and doing hair, but they should be ok cause they just hired two more bathers.

This whole weekend has been kinda strange, I didn't work on Friday, but it didn't feel like a Friday to me at all, and I really didn't see Steve at all either cause all his friends are getting together over this weekend for St. Patty's Day and what have you. I couldn't come hang out yesterday cause I went to do Lori's hair and by the time I got back on this side of twon it was late and I had to get up at 5:30am for work, So yeah I worked this morning 7-3:30pm, it actually wasn't too bad, I was semi busy but not out of control busy which is good, I might actually like working this shift.

I got home and I was going to take a nap but I actually wasn't tired so Steve came and got me, and we got food and came to ICHQ aka Brian's house, and there are only a couple people here right now, and we are all on our computers doing different shit, I was smart and brought my netbook with me this time, lol. I have no idea what is in store for the evening but I don't know how late I will make it so we will see.

Tomorrow I am not leaving the apartment unless I have to because my poor dogs have been alone for the past three days, and last night they made me feel horrible, lol even though when I am there they don't do anything but lay around and sleep, and Nelly will sometimes hump her baby, lol. I do stop in and let them out and check their food and water.

Alrighty kiddies, I am going to get off here for now.

♥ You Know You Love Me xoxo

I lied.

So I haven't changed my layout, I didn't end up even looking for a new back ground or anything the day I said I was going to.

Well... I had my appointment at Douglas J and it was so awesome. I applied for a school loan on Wednesday and I got approved for everything I will need to pay for school and to pay my bills durning the three months that I am in school. I talked to Macy yesterday, and it sounds like everything is in order, she just had to check with the director of the school about me starting in April because I am the only one who is signed up for it right now, but she said they did a one on one before. I think it would be kind of cool cause then my teacher would be focused on me, but like my friend Ricki said it might make the time drag on.

Yesterday was St. Patty's Day, I don't get all excited for it, cause I honestly don't see the point in celebrating drinking all day. I kind of think it's stupid, but to each their own, ya know? Steve's friends are all getting together this whole weekend to celebrate and hang out, I went over there last night after work, and it was more of a laid back night which I like, I am not a big party person or drinker. I am probably not going to go over there today, cause Steve is working durning the day, he thought he was going to be able to leave early but now he doesn't think he will, and I don't want to go over there with out him, I am not at that stage yet, and then later tonight I have to be in Livonia at 4pm to do some highlights on Lori again, and then by the time i get back out here it will probably be 8 or 9pm, and I have to work at 7am tomorrow which means I have to be up at 5:30am, so there really would be no point to drive over to Brian's for like a half an hour, cause I would really like to get a decent amount of sleep. And then I will just go over there after work on Saturday, well after a nap of course lol. Cause Steve will be there all day on Saturday, I don't eben know if he will even come home tonight, which would kind of suck.

Today I am just hang out at the house before I go out to Livonia, I felt bad that the dogs were here all day by themselfs yesterday. I think Peanut missed me, cause he's been laying next to me all morning, he usually stays in the bed until I go and get him.

Ughh I should probably go to the gym but I am seriously not motivated. I haven't had a day off where I could just relax. And really I have shit to do today so I kinda just want to relax while I am here and can.

Well I am off to figure out what I wanna do.

♥ You Know You Love Me xoxo

New Design.

I know it hasn't been long but I think it might be time for a new background and layout for my blog, what do ya think? Since I have nothing to do today until 3pm, I might browse around and see what I can find.

I was up kinda late lastnight, not feeling too hot. Steve and I kinda got into a little disagreement, but we talked and worked it out of course. That's what I love about our relationship we can always talk about things, not like when I was with other guys, they never wanted to talk about anything. I am glad Steve doesn't like conflict and he wants to talk and work things out. My nose is like a running facet, which sucks :( Hopefully I feel better later this afternoon cause I have my appoointment at Douglas J today. FINALLY!! I feel like these past 3 weeks took forever.

Douglas J is a company that owns 4 Aveda Schools and 2 Aveda Salon and Spas, It is one of the top schools in the country for cosmetology. I attending Douglas J from January 2009-May 2010, graduated and got my cos license. I have tried working in a few salons but for whatever reason things didn't work out. When I was still in school they told us about their educator program and I was interested then, but I didn't think I would be able to do it. Then Steve and I got to talking one night, and I had mentioned it to him before about how I wanted to do it, so he told me to get more information and then we could see what we could work out. The program is not super long so hopefully we will be able to work something out, I figure if I can get into it in like August/September we will be alright cause his lease will be done at Jackie's and he won't have to pay her every month anymore. So I am getting more information today at 3pm. It's funny I couldn't wait to get outta school but not that I have been out for almost a year, I miss it dearly.

Ooo.. is my body a little sore today. yay for the gym, lol. I don't think I am going to go today, but tomorrow for sure. I figure I could go Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays since I seem to have those days off, that way my body can rest a day inbetween. I might do the Wii Fit Yoga on the days I don't go to the gym, that way I am still doing something. ANd Yoga feels great and it will help tone and everything while I am working out and losing weight.

Alrighty, well I should probably get off of here and start my day by taking Nelly out she has been patiently waiting, lol.

♥ You Know You Love Me xoxo

Big 30 and I missed it.

My brother Mark is turning the big 30 tomorrow, and his wife and two of his friends decided to surprise him with a party at Sports Venus in Garden City on Saturday and guess who didn't get an invite? Yup, that's right this girl. Kinda stings a little bit, since well it's my brother. I just seem to get over looked a lot more since I moved out. It use to happen when I lived at home but now it happens more often. You think I would just be use to it by now, but when it's usually family that is doing it, it hurts even more. I will probably get Mark a card and stop by on Wednesday when I am out there cause it's not really his fault I wasn't invited. His friend text me today telling me how sorry he was and blah blah whatever it's fine.

Had my second therapy session today, and it went really well. She gave me an exercise to do whenever I start to feel anxious and hopefully it will help, and she also gave me some insight to help me this coming weekend, with Steve's friends all coming into town for a big get together. I am liking going to therapy.

Went to target and splurged on some new work out gear, that I probably shouldn't have got, but needed it, my other work out pants have holes all in them. So I got new pants, a shirt, and a zip up all made out of that special stuff that's super comfy lol. Apparently my ass looks amazing in these pants per Steve, lol he couldn't keep his hands off of me :) today was my first day back to the gym, and it was amazing! I never realized how much I missed it. I felt super great after being on the elptical for 30 mins and then doing the circuit training.

My dinner was very healthy I must say, lol. We ordered from Five Guys and I got their Veggie Sandwich thinking it was a boca patty or soy patty, nope it was lettece on a bun, good thing I only paid $2 for it.

Tomorrow I have my meeting at Douglas J, I am super excited and super nervous. I really hope that I will be able to get into the program and get out of my curtain job. We will see.

Well that's all I got for ya today.

♥ You Know You Love Me xoxo

fml

I woke up this morning to my left eye bugging me, I thought maybe I just had something in it. So....

I put on my glasses and sit up out of bed, and realize that I can't see out of my left eye, it's all blurry like I didn't even have my glasses on. So I don't freak out just yet, I get up and use some eye drops, and wait a little while. And when nothing happens, I start to freak. Then my whole face starts to hurt, and I am like wtf!

So I call into work cause there is no way I am going to work when I can't freakin' see. And of course my manager seems irritated which yeah I understand cause it's a Saturday and we are going to be busy, but I am feeling like shit. So I tol dher that I was going to try and see the doc and she was like well if you can come in later that would be helpful, just give us a call. Like really? I have never called off to the salon before, I have worked feeling like shit, being dizzy, and when I was throwing up. Sorry I needed today.

I call my mom to tell her what is going on and she tells me to go to an Urgent Care cause they will take my insurance, so I found out super close to the apartment, and I woke Steve up and made him drive me. The doctor told me i have sinusitis and conjuctivitis. He wrote me some scripts, and gave me a note for work for today, and so we went to CVS dropped those off and went to get breakfast cause all I wanted was some pancakes at this point. We went to The National by the apartment. After that we got my scripts, I came home took them, and then just chilled, I threw up once and I've just been taking it easy since then. My head is still bugging me, I can almost see clearly out of my eye but it's still bugging me, and I still have a fever but it did go down some after taking medicine, so that's good.

Steve's been in a crappy mood since I woke him up, and things have not been going so well for him, he was hoping he wouldn't have to work and of course they called him with some problems, and then he wanted to play Everquest but something is going on and he can't. And I Woke him up early, it's been a rough day for him.

Well he is making some Mac and Cheese and it's almost done so I am going to stop updating and get my food on.

♥ You Know You Love Me xoxo

Workin' on my fitness

So I just signed up for a Planet Fitness membership, yay!! I was a member before and I use to go like every night but then I got lazy, lol. But I really want to lose this weight, god damn it.

So I am not looking forward to work this weekend, I am the only bather on Friday and Sunday :( I hope Amanda found out about the other store. And hopefully they have something available in the hotel for good hours.

Today has kinda been an off day for me, for some reason. I did some shopping at Target, got us a Microwave cart, and the Eclipse curtains. Then I got a hose with shower head for the sink so I can give Peanut a bath. And then I went grocery shopping at Kroger. Now I am at Steve's mom's doing laundry and watching Titanic lol.

We are getting Jets for dinner, I am getting a Greek Chicken Salad, yum! :)

Ok Kiddies thats all for now.

♥ You Know You Love Me xoxo

+ 1 more lb!

Ughh.. again this week was bad for me and I have gained yet another pound. FML. I do good for the first part of the week and then the weekend comes and I work like a crazy women and then when I get home I don't want to cook anything so I pick something up or we go out, and of course I don't eat right. But I need to get serious. I do not want to gain anymore weight.

Last night we went to dinner with Steve's mom, and I almsot got my birthday present early but then Steve changed his mind :( I was excited but oh well I can wait. We came home after just chilled. I was exhuasted because I didn't go to bed the night before until like 2:30am and then I still go tup with Steve at 8am, and all day I was busy doing stuff. Even though I feel like I didn't do anything, lol.

Today, I need to go to the bank, and hit up Target, I would like to get a Kitchen Cart for the mircowave so we have more counter space and then I want to get those Eclipse curtains, that are suppose to block out the light and some sound and help with your heating, we will see if they really work. Our window in the bedroom sucks, and you can hear everything that is happening outside of it. And it's not installted very well so the room is freezing, and of course the sun shines right in as soon as it comes up.

Well I should start my day since I slept in an extra hour :) see ya kiddies.

♥ You Know You Love Me

it's fine.

Yesterday was a pretty good day for the most part, I worked 11-7:30, where for about the first half of the day, I felt like no one really wanted me there, I fely invisible cause no one was really talking to me, like they use to. It's annoying that things are all akward now and I don't even really know why. I was just starting to feel like I was fitting in with all the girls. Guess I was wrong :(

After work, I came home and did some yoga, and then had dinner with my hunny. And then I was talking to my neighbor across the hall and she invited me over for some drinks and to hang out, so I went over there, and we made some delcious smoothies and just talked and hung out until like 1:30am. Then I came home and went to bed.

It's really nice to have a girl that I can hang out with that isn't far away! I love it. I have missed just hanging out and having girl time :)

Today is my second day off for the week, I haven't really done much but go to State Farm and meet my agent, and then I came home and cleaned the kitchen a bit, and now I am just relaxing, I asked Steve if he wanted to have lunch like an hour ago and still haven't gotten an answer. He's at work so who knows what is going on lol.

We are meeting up with his mom later for dinner and to watch a movie or play a game. I love her :)

Well I should get going. I have stuff I should be doing. See ya kiddies.

♥ You Know You Love Me xoxo

Feeling Good

Yesterday was a wonderful day off, I must say. I started out the day just lounging around the apartment with my doggys, and watching Drop Dead Diva. Then I did a little bit of cleaning.

I had my first therapy appointment yesterday at 4pm, and it went very well, I was nervous at first but once I got there and we starte dtalking it went well and I really like her. So I am going to contiune to go on Mondays at 4pm :)

When I got home from therapy, I was going to play WoW for awhile but then decided to work out instead, I started out with the EA Sports Active but I was getting annoyed with it cause the stupid censors wern't working right, so I switched to the Wii Fit Plus, and I realized I like that waay better, and I am going to try and do it everyday. I love yoga, it makes me feel great, the rest of the night I felt wonderful and still this morning I feel great. :) Weight in day probably isn't going to be as good as I hoped for this week but I don't think it's going to be awful either, I've had a couple bad meals, but ya never know. I am not going to beat myself up over it, I am just going to try harder next week. Steve decided not to do his diet cause it was kind of retarded so He's going to go get his money back, thank god.

I have to work today 11-7:30 in the salon, I am hoping it won't be too horrible. Durning the week usually isn't too bad. But ya never know, I have no days int he hotel this week which kinda sucks, but I still have 32 hours this week. Next week starts my weeks of not having to work on Sundays, yay!!!! I am excited about that. I need to check the schedule today and see if my boss ever changed my Tuesday next week, cause I have an appointment at Douglas J to learna bout the educator program. I gace her a 3 week notice I think that's plenty of time. So we will see if not I am going to have to talk to her, and I am sure it won't be pretty which sucks.

When I come home from work tonight I am going to do my yoga again :) I am excited about it.

I ordered some bras from VS today. I got 4 of the Perfect One Push-ups cause I have one already and I basically wear it all the dame time cause it's my favorite so I figured I should get a couple more since I barely wear any of my other ones. I can't wait to get them :) Last night their website was being retarded and it wouldn't let me sign in I was getting pissed, lol.

Well I have to let Peanut out and start getting ready to leave for work, see ya later kiddies.

♥ You Know You Love Me xoxo

omfgicanttakeanymore

Saturday was a terrible day for me. Work was crazy busy like always, and of course I came home and cried, While I was on lunch one of my dog's probably knocked over it's water like it had done number of times durning it's time and got all wet, and one of my co-workers, had to stop what she was doing and blow dry the dog a bit, like that's the end of the world, right? Well then the owner wasn't happy that the dog still had an undercoat, well when you only bring the dog to the groomer twice a year and you yourself doesn't brush it, a 30 minute brushing isn't going to help that much. So after I got off of a crappy lunch, I got into a little fight with Steve, which already had me upset, I walked back into the salon just to get screamed at and told that I need to learn how to brush my dogs better and make sure that they are dried and when I tried to explain myself I couldn't so I just let her yell at me. I wanted to yell back at her but I knew I would just look stupid. And if it got back to my boss I wouldn't look bad for yelling at a co-worker in front of all the others.

So after I got yelled out and humiliated I went into the back to finish my other dog that randomly showed up, and I just cried and cried. And then when I came home and started telling Steven what happened he made me feel like crap too, so instead of crying in front of him and his friend I went out into the hallway and cried, and my new neighbor who just moved in, popped her head out and invited me in, so I went in and we talked and I found out she's super nice, and I like her alot. I'm so glad she was home.

I did not want to go to work today, I was seriously considering to call off, but I didn't want to screw Bri over, so I went in and it started out very well, and then it gradually felt like it started to fall apart but then Bri came to the rescue and saved me and I got to take my lunch which I thought I wasn't going to get. But then the same girl who yelled at me yesterday started giving me attitude again because I think she tohought I was the one who moved the dryer off her dog, when I didn't but since I was the only one back there, she gave me attitude about it. I am getting real sick of getting attitude.

I talked to Amanda today to see what I would have to do to transfer because I might seriously consider transfering to the Utica store. Cause I don't think that I won't be able go back to the hotel, and I don't think I want to be in the salon anymore. Plus we might have to move, I have to dig out the lease but I heard froma neigbor that the apartments are going to be sending out a notice about the dog poop and that if people don't start picking up after their dog's, we won't be able to have dogs and I have to see if they are allowed to do that. If they do they better not give us shit about getting out of our lease early cause I am not giving up my dogs and they have no where else to go. Ughh what a weekend.

After a delcious dinner at Azteca with my Steven, I am now home relaxing and watching these great new show I discovered on Netflix, called Drop Dead Diva. I have been watching it for three days now. I am almost done with Season One and I really hope there are more seasons to watch.

I am done updating for now. Later kiddos

♥ You Know You Love Me xoxo

2lbs+

I was right, when I stepped on the scale yesterday morning it confirmed that I gained weight, it wasn't as much as I thought but still it sucked to see that I had gained 2lbs. But it motivated me to do good this week and from now on. I think it's really going to help that Steve is on a diet too. And I have to remember not to buy any junk when I go food shopping. I have gotten in working out three times this week, which I am proud of :) Work is a work out too lol, I am on my feet running around, lifting dogs, moving all around. So that should help me out too.

I am not really looking forward to this weekend. I am still scheduled to work Saturdays and Sundays for this week and next week, cause Lindsay took of this weekend, and Bri took off next weekend, and Lindsay doesn't want to just throw the new bathers on to a weekend short handed which I can understand. Hopefully this weekend won't be so bad. We will see.

I don't go into work today until 3pm, which is good and bad, like I am glad I have time to do stuff but then again it's like how dumb to go in just for 5.5 hours. I have to have a manager check my hours tomorrow before I leave to see if I am going to go over 40 hours at all and if I am going to I will get to leave work early. But I don't think I will since I didn't work last Sunday and I am only working 5.5 hours at the hotel this week.

I might need a nap lol.

After work, I am going to Steve's moms for dinner and to pick up Girl Scout cookies for Thomas. Hopefully I'm not dead tired.

Alrighty well I am going to go back to relaxing.

♥ You Know You Love Me xoxo

^^breakdown^^

All day I have been feeling kinda blah with myself. Like I know tomorrow when I step on the scale to weigh in that it's going to tell me I gained weight because Friday, Saturday, Sunday, Monday, and Tuesday we ate bad.

My best friend posted a really cute pic of herself today, and she looks so good in it, and I got jealous. I wish I could be as pretty as she is, I would even go for half as pretty as she is. She has always been beautiful since the day I have met her, and I will admit I have been jealous of her a numorous times. Then I saw the girl who moved in across the hall and she's super pretty and skinny too, and this is when I lost it. I started to cry, and I even asked Steve if he was really even attracted to me. Then I worked out which I hoped would help me feel a little better, but it really didn't.

Then I made my nice healthy dinner of 7oz of chicken breast, some corn, and a reducded fat cresent, and I couldn't even eat the whole thing cause I felt so gross. Plus the corn juice made everything taste like the corn. So I threw half of my dinner away, which now I think I already complained about this.

I got into the shower and this is when it really hit me, and I felt totally grossed out with myself. Then Steve pops his head in cause he had just gotten home from work, and asked me what was wrong, and of course I say nothing, and of course he knows better so he says we will talk when I get out. He leaves and I start to cry. I get out of the shower and go straight to the bed, he comes in and I start to bawl my eyes out and tell him, I wish I was just pretty. And of course he tells me that I am pretty. And hugs me, and makes me feel a little better. Then he says he will always be here to pick me up when I have fallen, how sweet is that? He's the best ever.

I still feel kinda blah, and I know I will feel even more blah tomorrow morning after I weigh in, but I just have to keep focused and follow my weight watchers, and keep working out. I know I can do it.

I can't wait to start therapy, lol. It's going to help so much.

Alrighty, well even though it's only 9:30pm I think I might go to bed. See ya later kiddies.

♥ You Know You Love Me xoxo

Happy Hump Day

It's Wednesday, which means it's the middle of the week. Which means my craziness is about to start soon.

Today was my last day off for the week, and all I really wanted to do was lay around and do nothing. But the apartment was a little bit messy so I had to do some cleaning, and I had to finish our laundry. My dad stopped by and picked up the toys I bought for Matylda and took the rest of Steve's birthday cake, cause we both started our diets and can not have cake in the house lol. I don't trust myself at all.

I then ventured to Walmart to find some rain boots but they didn't have any that fit which sucked. So then I stopped by Kmart and they had super cute ones but I need all black ones for work, so I had to get Men's of course. But they are shorter then the ones I have and they don't have removeable liners. So I got those, and I got a new game card for WoW cause mine was going to expire soon. And I got some inserts for my boots, gel inserts lol.

Then I came home and worked out, and then I started to make dinner, which I didn't even eat much of, I made chicken tenders, cresents, and corn. And my corn kinda ruined everything because the juice got all over and everything tasted like corn. So I threw half of it away and made a peanut butter sandwich which really didn't fill me up cause I use thin bread. Blah I hate dieting, but I want to be skinny damn it.

So I am finally relaxing. And watching Top Model, I got caught up on all my shows this week so far. I just want to shower and do nothing the rest of the night. I don't even want to play any games, but I know Steve will want to even though he's not even home from work yet. I am actually kind of tired.

I start therapy on Monday, I can't wait. I am really hoping it will help me out a lot, I am so sick of being anxious and crying for stupid shit. And I would like to control my OCD behaviors. I noticed it's only when I know I am going to be gone for awhile, like off to work or when I go to visit my parents.

I got jeans from VS and they fit but are super tight, so those are my goal jeans, I hope to fit in them in a month. I got this right? lol.

Alright kiddies, time for a shower and then bed, maybe lol. I know I am lame.

♥ You Know You Love Me xoxo

No puppies

So I don't have any puppies in my lap right now, so I can update. lol.

Last night while Steve's mom was over, she told us that Steve's cousin Robbie is going through with getting married, he's only 19. I guess no one really likes the girl cause she can never make up her mind if she wants to be with him or not, but I guess now that she has a ring I think she'll stick around. I almost cried though while she was telling us about it cause he's 19!!! I am almost 27 and probably not even close to getting married :( I know Steve wants to get married someday but it doesn't sound like anytime soon. I was close one time to getting married, but it didn't work out which I know was for the better cause we probably would be divorced already. But I would really love to get married someday and start a family, if you know me, you know that I want a baby more then anything. I feel different with Steve, that we will make it there but I can't really tell him that cause I don't want to freak him out. His last girlfriend basically forced him into buying a ring, but I won't do that. I want it to be magically and special when it happens.

It seems like people are getting married all around me, Jamie just got married, Jeremy, Jenny, and Jodi are all getting married this summer, and I am like when is it going to be my turn?? I know I should be happy that I finally have a man that I am truly happy with and that we were basically made for eachother. Blah.

I start therapy next week Monday. Maybe this will help me. Actually I know it will.

Ok gotta get back to the laundry

♥ You Know You Love Me xoxo

Amazing

Had an amazing weekend with my hunny and our friends :) Sunday we kinda just chilled out and Steve's mom came over with the puppies and we all hung out and had dinner and played Monopoly. It was a good time.

Today is my last day off of my 4 :( I am at Steve's mom's house doing some laundry cause one of the dryers at the apartment is not working so I am going to do some here and then finish up at the apartment. The puppies were so excited to see me when I got here.

I need to stop at work and get some more dog food and poop bags. yay! hahaha.... Bailey is making it very hard to update right now, cause he's in my lap and wants to cuddle, lol. He's such a cutie. So I guess I will update more later. There's nothing exciting to say anyways, lol.

♥ You Know You Love Me xoxo

Steve's Birthday!

Today is offically Steve's birthday, but we celebrated with all his friends lastnight. It was a lot of fun. We went to Red Robin for dinner, which was yummy, I think we were the loudest ones there. lol. Then we all headed back to my apartment. There's were a lot of people in the apartment, lol. But it worked out really good. I had bought a folding table and it came with 4 chairs so we had that set up and they were playing Magic on it, then at the dining room table they had a game of Euchure going, and then in the living room we were playing Apples to Apples. When the euchure game ended them playing joined us in Apples to Apples. After a couple games of that and after some people left, Nick, Racahel, Rory, and I decided to play Cranium, and after a night of drinking this was probably not a good idea, but oh was it so much fun, lol. The dining room table didn't get used for much after that other then holding all the snacks and the cake. And after the Magic game, they were playing Catan on the folding table. After Cranium, I was kinda out for the count, cause it was like 1am, I couldn't even tell you the last time I stayed up that late, lol. I fell asleep on the couch until like 2am, then Steve woke me up and told me to go to bed, lol. I passed right the f out!

Woke up this morning at 10AM, haven't slept in that long in awhile. I was afarid to come out into the living room/dining room to see how the night had ended but it's not too bad, should be an easy cleaned. Which I should get started on.

I will update more later kiddies.

&hearts You Know You Love Me xoox

The Coloring Process.....

I started my day out by running to CVS to get some color opps, to get rid of this black hair I have. Then I hit up Sally's and I got a 3IR and I came home and here's what I started with...



Then after 20 mins of the color opps process here's what my hair turned into, the pic is not the best but it's all I could get



Then since my hair came out lighter then I thought it would, I went back to Sally's and got a 5IR instead and this is what came out, I wish it was a little lighter but oh well...





After all the coloring process, I met up with Jackie for lunch, we went to some Lebanese place, and it was alright. I wouldn't pick it as my first choice to go to for food, but I would go again if invited. After lunch I came home and cleaned the kitchen, bathroom, and living room/dining room. I still need to do a little cleaning here and there tomorrow before people come over, but most of it is done. I then went to Meijer and picked up pop and snacks for the party and some other things that we needed. Being home alone all night has really sucked, well actually being home alone all day has kinda sucked. Steve left for work at like 8:30am and still isn't home yet, and it's almost 10:30pm, I am really starting to not like his work, and I hate that because I want to support him cause I know it's what he wants to do, but I feel like they do not give him enough in return for everything that he does for them, like when he works 13 hour days. He's always stressed out, and then we get into fights cause when he's stressed I get stressed and it's just a mess.

I don't even feel like updating anymore.

♥ You Know You Love Me xoxo

Hello Weekend...

Yup my weekend has offically started and it's a 4 day weekend cause I have Friday, Saturday, Sunday, and Monday off, YAY!!!!!!!!!

Work was retarded today, I went in at 11am, washed one my manager's dogs, then one of the groomer's dogs, and then I did call logs, then I basically just dicked around for a few hours, then I took a 15 min break around 2:30ish, then I took my lunch at 3:30pm and when I came back my one and only appointment was there, so I bathed her and made her all pretty, and then I basically dicked around again until ablout 7:10pm and then they let me leave, whoopidty doo 20 mins early, should have sent me home at 4:40 when I was done with my dog, but whatever I needed the money.

Tomorrow is a busy day... I am going to color opps my hair, and see how much of this black I can get out, and then I am going to try and do an Intense Medium red brown on it, I am hoping for the best, I will post pics for ya. I am meeting Jackie for lunch around 1pm, and then I need to clean some of the apartment up since we are having people over Saturday night for Steve's birthday, I figure I can clean half tomorrow and then the rest on Saturday before everyone comes over. I also was thinking about rearanging the bedroom, and maybe painting the one wall like I wanted to a week ago. We will see how much time I actually have though :) Cause I still have to go buy the hair color and crap.

Saturday we are going out to eat for Steve's birthday and then having people over afterwords to play games or whatever, it should be a good time. And then SUnday we are meeting up with his mom and grandpa, cause it's his actal birthday and then we will probably just relax and play WoW.

I am feeling pretty tired at the moment, for some reason I woke up at 6:30am and could not get back to sleep, I laid in bed until 7:30am, and then just got up and took a shower.

I am going to go play Wow and hopefully finish these last 4 quests I have then take the dogs out then go to bed. I will be updating tomorrow kiddies :)

♥ You Know You Love Me xoxo

Worst Day Ever

I thought today was going to be a good day, but oh was I wrong.

I had to work 9:30-6pm today which is the closing shift, and Sundays usually are not as bad as Saturdays but today was worse then yesterday by far.

It started out ok, I had my dogs getting done on time, but then I fell behind because of I don't really know. At one point I had one dog and I was just waiting for him to finish drying, and then two more dogs showed up and then two more, and then one more, and none of them were even close to being done, and my shift was over half way over and I still hadn't taken a lunch, and I was getting very frustrated. All my dogs were bad for at least one of their services, and I was going nuts, then I smack the side of my face on a cage door, I was picking up my dog to put him back in and bam! there it was. And it still hurts, I didn't think it was that bad. When 6 o,clock hit I was very excitied.

I wanted to come home and relax and just be alone with Steven, but I get home and he has a couple of friends over, but I don't want to be that gf that bitches about having friends over, for sure since they are friends he doesn't see a lot.

Oh back to work stuff, I decided that I do not want to be a groomer, I want to try and get a job in a salon. I will stay at Petsmart part-time so I can keep my insurance.

I really need to start therapy, I am calling her tomorrow with all my information. And hopefully we can start up something soon.

I can't focus anymore, so see ya kiddies

♥ You Know You Love Me xoxo

i hate saturdays

Have I mentioned that I really hate Saturdays??? Well I do. I work Saturdays 12:30-9pm in the grooming salon, and let me tell you, Saturdays are nuts! I had 3 dogs at 12:30, then 1 dog at 1:30, then two at 3pm, then one at 4pm, and then 2 at six and inbetween all of these I have to do any walk in nail trims, which there were probably 6 or 7 of those. I walked in at 12:30 and I thought I was there for like 5 mins and I look at the clock and it was 3:30, I mean that is awesome, I love that time flys by, but I hate being pressured and I hate getting behind.

We actually got to leave on time tonight, I thought for sure it was going to be a late night again, like last weekend. I come home to Steve and his friend Louis, I really didn't want to have to deal with having someone over, but I just am doing my own thing. I took a bath and then I watched some tv, and now I am here updating, and they are being pretty quite so going to bed shouldn't be a problem, here soon :)

I really don't feel like working tomorrow, but I gotta. I don't have a day off until Wednesday now cause I switched days with Kristen. But Wednesday is my mama's birthday so I am going to go see her. And give her a hair cut. And I hope to surprise her with either a edible arrengment or flowers.

I am going to take the dog out and then get into bed, so nighty night kiddies.

♥ You Know You Love Me xoxo

Survived

I survived the airport yesterday, I was shocked lol. I was so nervous to drop Jackie off, because I had never been there before and I thought for sure that I would get lost trying to get out but it was actually pretty simple.

After the airport I went to my brother's house and had dinner with him and Mandi, and then I cut Mandi's hair for her, and then I went to my parent's and visited for a little bit and picked up some stuff that I needed to.

Then I came home and Steve and I laid on the couch for a bit and talked and then we decided to crawl into bed and we were both out like a light at like 10:30pm, we are such old people, I swear lol.

Woke up this morning, at like 8am, but laid in bed until 8:30am, I was feeling a bit dizzy this morning so I took a pill and I am feeling a bit better now, my back is sore though which sucks, cause it's just going to get worse once I get to work :( I really wish I didn't have to work every Saturday and Sunday. It's so tiring.

Next week, I am only working two days so far, Tuesday in the salon and Wednesday in the hotel. I asked Kevin if he wanted me to come in and work for him on Thursday because he wants to go down to one day a week anyways, and I could use the extra hours, but he nevr answered me. So I guess we will see.

Steve's birthday is next week, and I already spilled the beans to what I am getting him, but I do still have one surprise up my sleeve :)

Well I am going to go relax and spend time with Steve before I have to head into work. Working 12:30-9pm sucks!

♥ You Know You Love Me xoxo

HP Mini

I am updating from my new HP Mini Raspberry Netbook, that I just got today with my tax money :) I have been missing a laptop for awhile. I had a Macbook but it was like 5 years old, and the tings I wanted to do with it I couldn't and Steven ended up putting Windows on it for me, and I used that more then the Mac OSX so I decided to sell it, and I have been without a laptop for about 3 months now. And I figured it was time to get a new one.

This one is super cute, it's pink and it's 10" very small and light weight, and it will be perfect for my blogging and for when I do hair clients, because I keep track of everyone's information about what we did and when we did it. So it will be very helpful since I travel around.

I woke feeling ok, and then I all of a sudden got really hot and dizzy and then sick to my stomach. I took one of my pills and the dizziness went away and my stomach is alright, but I am still super hot. I have the windows in the apartment open, the fan on, I don't know what else I can do other then get naked, lol.

I didn't go to lunch with Steve's mom. I still am taking Jackie to the airport though I think, I did tell her I wasn't feeling good, but then I said I was feeling better, but now I just want to stay in bed with my dogs. Steve is all about me taking Jackie to the airport I am not sure why and I don't want to ask cause who knows where that will lead. I am waiting for her to get back to me about what time she needs to leave.

I feel so bad for leaving again today, and leaving the dogs home alone. They were basically alone all day yesterday and now again today :( It's super nice out too, I wish I could let them out to play. Some days I feel bad for making them come and live here in the apartment. I feel like they hate it sometimes. I am sure Peanut is fine but I think Nelly misses having a yard and the other dogs. Hopefully we will get a house after the lease is up here. We have to. Or I will hate myself lol.

Ok I need to get some food and possiably take a nap. I am feeling like crap.

♥ You Know You Love Me xoxo

I want to be LAZY!!

Woke up this morning with Steven around 8amish. I got myself ready after he left for work, and then I had to hit up CVS to get him a Rockstar and some pop cause we didn't have any at the house, and hit up the ATM for some cash. I dropped off his stuff and then hit up Meijer for some much needed groacery shopping.

About a month ago, I applied for a Bridge Card, just to see if I could get anything cause right now we are hurting for money, with his debit and mine, and then bills on top of it, it sucks. So I had my interview, had to fax over my proof of my lease, my pay stubs, and proof of my renter's insurance, and then on Monday I got a letter in the mail saying that I was approved for $151/month for just food, which is fine with me, that will help us out so much. So I got the card yesterday in the mail. Grocery shopping was wonderful today cause all I had to pay was $18 and some change in cash, probably for the cleaning supplies and the gift bag and birthday card.

Now I am just kinda chilling around the apartment which I would really like to do for the rest of the day but I have two hair appointments out in the Garden City/Livonia area, I am doing highlights and probably lowlights on Lori, and Mandi wants a hair cut and she said she would cook dinner :) and maybe I will be able to see the Wings games. I also want to stop by my parent's house and drop off my mom's birthday present and get my mail cause my checks are there, and Steven's Valentine's/Anniversary present. I feel like i am always on the go. I hate it sometimes.

Tomorrow is going to be the same way cause I am meeting up with Steven's mom and then I told Jackie I would drive her to the airport, ughh why am I so nice? lol.

Ok well I am going to go and relax now while I can. And probably take Nelly for a long walk since I am going to be gone for awhile.

♥ You Know You Love Me xoxo

Too much drama... in the WoW

I was really excited to play WoW with Steven and all his friends, My character hasnt reached level 85 yet though, we are working on it, but after the last few nights of raiding, there is so much bullshit, and crying about stuff, that it makes me not even want to play. It's a game, and yes I understand that others take it more serious then I do, but c'mon it's a damn game, why get into a fight with a friend of so many years over it? Seems kinda dumb to me.

Work was alright tonight. I ended up getting a headache, and started feeling dizzy like half way through, and then my stomach decided to put it's two sense in and make me feel sick and want to throw up. Steve ended up letting me cut out a little early.

So, now I am home and feeling a little bit better, since it's still nice out I took Nelly for a long walk which I thinkt he fresh air helped my head cause it's starting to feel a little better. I love that at 9pm it's 43 degrees out, I know it's so sad, lol. I can't wait for Srping Time, I promised Nelly once it got warmer her walks would get longer lol and I want to try and train Peanut on the leash. I wasn't doing it in the freezing ass cold, lol.

Tomorrow is my semi-day off, I have to run and get a birthday card for my mama, I still haven't decided if I want to mail her, her gift or just give it to her tomorrow when I am out there. Probably give it to her tomorrow cause I hate having to wait to give gifts, lol. I am going out to GC to do up some hair, Lori wants some highlights and lowlights, and Mandi, my sis in law needs a cut, that's why I say it's my semi-day off, lol. I think I might paint the wall I want to in the bedroom, I'm not 100% sure. I want to liven it up a little bit :)

Friday I am off of work also, yay!!! I am going to have lunch and hang out with Steven's mom Lynn, and then I am taking Steven's friend Jackie to the airport, that should be interesting since I am terrified of the airport, but I have another excuse to stop and see my parents :) And maybe I will see what Ricki is up to and maybe stop by over there, and see her and the girls. And Tom, lol.

Then I am working the rest of the weekend, in the grooming salon. YAY! hahaha....

Alright, I am done updating for now.

♥ You Know You Love Me xoxo

Hello There.

Ok so this probably should have been my first post instead but oh wells. I have no idea if anyone else will read this other then my best friend Ricki, but that's fine with me.

I'm Jess, I'm a 20-something female, living in Michigan. I am a license cosmetlogist, Pet Care Technician, and Veterinary Assistant. I can never decide what I ant to do with my life, so I keep learning, lol. Right now I am currently working with the animals, and trying to decide if I really want to go to grooming school or not, I just found out that in about a year, Steven (my boyfriend) will be making enough money, hopefully so he can cover things so I can work less and go back to school, I would really love to go back to Douglas J, that's where I went for cos school and get into the educator program, and become a cosmetology educator at Douglas J.

I have worked in a few salons, but I haven't found one that I fit at yet, so I took a little break, but I have been doing hair and make-up on the side, and it just makes me miss doing it everyday, like when I was in school, so I think I might start looking for a salon job again, and work there part-time, and keep working with the animals, cause they give me insurance even if I am part-time, and once you get to know me, or if you already know me, you know I need insurance, lol. I think I can't find a salon I like because of the school I went to, they were really into eaching us siccsoring techniques instead of clipper work, and a lot of places want you to use clippers and I am just not that skilled with them, but if a place is willing to teach me so I can work there, I am all about it.

Steven and I have been together for 6 months and two days :) I know I am lame, but that's ok, I really really love this guy. I know I have probably said it before about a guy but I have never felt the way I do about Steven with anyone else. We started talking on Match.com on August 8th, we exchanged numbers and text and talked basically 24/7 for that whole week, and then we went on our first date on August 14th, and that's when the magic happened, lol. We have basically been attached at the hip since then, we have only spent about 5-7 nights apart since we met. We are currently living together with my doggys in a cute apartment on the east side. We plan on either buying his mom's house after the lease isup, if she wants, so she can move to NC or we will find a house we can rent to own in the Royal Oak area. Steven and I are such a great fit, it's kind of disguting, lol. He has gotten me into a lot of things that without him I would have nver of tried, and surprisingly I love them, like WoW, hahaha.... if you knew me a few years ago you would have never thought I would say that because I always made fun of the game. BUt we are doing great, Like all couples we have our ups and our downs, but we always talk through it, and get past it which I feel like it makes us stronger as a couple. Both of our exs have damged us in different ways, but they were alike by never wanting to talk about problems and fix them, they both just wanted them to magically dissappear but they never do, and I think that's why things get better between us after we fix any problems we have. Communication is key right?

Ok so I haven't actually mentioned where I am working, well it's a Petsmart. I work in the PetsHotel, and the grooming salon, I love it there, and I love the people, but it does get stressful at times, like all jobs do. Between the two, I work about 37-39 hours depending on the week, which is great cause when I first started I was only getting 20-25 hours a week, and having these new place and being on my own I needed more money. Tonight I am working in the PetsHotel. It should be a good time.

Well it's almost 10am, and I haven't had breakfast yet, so I am going to get to that. And I will for sure be around more updating, I have had this blog for awhile and just stopped updating, but I think I need it to help keep my sane, lol.

That's all for now.

♥ You Know You Love Me xoxo

Had a great Valentine's Day

Yesterday was Valentine's Day and mine and Steve's 6 months. He had to work durning the day, so I cleaned up the apartment, and Jenny came out so I could highlight her hair, and once Steve came home we went to dinner at Marinelli's where we had our very first date, and then stopped by Best Buy and bought some movies, and then we came home crawled into bed and popped in Kick Ass. But we were both falling asleep around 10pm. Steve says it's because we are old people now, lol. He got me a great necklace from Lucido. I have been wanting something from there for awhile. I would make a better update since it's been awhile since I've posted but I have to start getting ready for work. So a better update will come later tonight or tomorrow.

♥ You Know You Love Me xoxo